In my life I figured there were going to be a few dates I remember. Birthdays of course, the day Coty proposed, our anniversary, the day we found out we were pregnant with Molly and the day our children were born. These dates in my mind are worth remembering, unforgettable and easy to remember because they mean so much to us. Three years ago today, we lost our second baby. Molly was a little over a year old and I can still remember the funny photo I took of her in the car, unknowingly soaking in moments that I would never forget because in a few short hours I’d lose our baby. Even after 3 year I still remember each moment through that day and I am so thankful I do. I think because we had been through so much the last few years I am so grateful that God has kept us afloat. Its easy to feel as you’re just about ready to let the waves take you over but as Coty and I have both learned, when we keep our eyes fixed on Him, everything will be just fine. I’ve learned that nothing is guaranteed, nothing is easy, that the only way we are going to get through this life is with Jesus Christ and He is the ONLY way and the ONLY truth. I may have been raised in a Christian home, gone to Christian schools and attended church but it wasn’t until I experienced this loss of our baby did I realize these things. I’ve asked God so many times to not let me forget these moments in my life, that these unforgettable dates be written on my heart forever because they remind me how much I need Him in my life. I can’t help but soak in my sweet boys and their funny noises they are making these days. I still cannot believe I have these three beautiful children Coty and I are blessed to raise on this earth and three beautiful babies we will meet someday in heaven.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

 I’m quick to remember songs rather than bible verses so these songs were so close to my heart during this time and still are today. The Hurt & the Healer. Oceans came about the next year but it immediately hit home for me.  10,000 Reasons. “You can make many plans but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” Proverbs 19:21

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