You know its summer if you don’t hear from us within seconds from sending an email, blogging is scarce, weddings are edited and shipped within a week & we are setting up regular appointments to the chiropractor. I cannot believe its September already, I have no idea where the summer went but its pretty much gone. With this low 70 degree weather, it really feels gone. I had this idea in my head I’d get Molly swimming lessons this year and that was definitely more of a thought then an action, next year… next year! Well not many of you knew this but we actually were pregnant, again. In February on my birthday we found out we were pregnant with our 3rd child. Alright so I feel like I should give you somewhat of a back story so here it is. First, we have Molly. She is a funny, kind hearted , spunky, a little ocd like her daddy, beautiful and very strong willed. She will be 3 this December and when I tell you she has saved my heart one too many times, I really mean it.

Last year, we got pregnant with our second baby and 13 short weeks later we lost our baby.  We grieved that loss for a long time, it was hard on our marriage but it also brought us closer together. That was the first time I really felt a loss deeper then I ever imagined and I prayed and hoped I would never feel it again. I won’t go into anymore details but you can read the whole story here. As time went on, our hearts were healed and we were ready to try again for a baby. A brother or sister for Molly. I longed for those sweet baby toes as Molly was growing so quickly. So on my 29th birthday at an Advocare convention in Dallas, Coty and I found out we were pregnant again. I can’t begin to tell you how happy we were at that moment. I had hope for our growing family and the fear of losing another baby was at bay.

At the end of April we took a last minute trip to Orlando. I was going to be 13 weeks and I wanted to be away, out of my head and spending time with family. So we headed to Orlando where my dad works during the week and we went to Disney. I felt like a kid again, and sharing that moment with Molly and the baby growing inside me, I won’t ever forget it. So when we got home I had a routine doctor appointment and I was in full planning mode for our baby gender reveal party. Mother’s day was that Sunday so I had planned on having the cutest party at our home for the reveal. As I walked into my doctor’s appointment with no worry in the world I heard the words “‘ I’m sorry Ashley, there’s no heartbeat.” My world shifted at that moment. Shifted to this other world I didn’t want to know about, live in or even believe existed. I was 15 weeks that day and when I got home from the hospital it was as if I was never pregnant. Because we never got to announce our baby’s gender, tell our clients and start decorating, it really felt like it never happened. A couple weeks later I got the call that our baby girl was perfectly normal, no genetic issues at all and was a sweet little girl. Knowing it was a girl made things change drastically. With our last miscarriage, I lost the baby so suddenly at home that I wasn’t able to find out the gender. I believe it was a girl but while I’m on this earth, I won’t know. There will be a day when I meet my 2 babies and I look forward to that day.

Since then we have been in this fog of medical tests, specialist appointments and more. I wasn’t prepared for everything they had to say but one thing I felt when we lost our sweet baby girl was hope. Its been hard to really name our baby so I’ve just called her Hope from time to time. I’ve clung that feeling that God’s put on my heart and I’ve prayed for it as much as I can. We recently found out that I have a genetic mutation called MTHFR which means my blood clots while I’m pregnant causing me to miscarry. So during prengancy I need to be on a blood thinner like baby aspirin or Heparin. I also had to have a small surgery a few weeks ago to remove some tissue they found in my uterus. I feel as if this never ending miscarriage is finally over and we’re able to move on and start basking in the hope God’s given us these days.

We were only able to tell a few clients that we were pregnant and we were very grateful for the understanding we received from those who did know. We are always so blessed to be surrounded by such amazing clients, makes our job so much better. I always worry that clients will not understand because we’re two different stages of life but so far, its been great. No matter how old I am, how many kids I have, I’ll always love weddings. I strive on staying relevant with the styles, taking notes on what brides love and lets be honest… I’d get married every year if I could. I’m blessed to be married to my partner in this business which makes everything all the more amazing. We’ve been through hell & high water and with God guiding our marriage we can officially say we can make it through anything. So there is our little update on our life. Emails have been a little delayed here and there so if you wanted to know… well now you know.

We have just 9 weddings left for the year and we are excited to be a part of each one. As the summer ends and our fall season begins, be prepared for us to be as busy as we were in May & June. I often refer to October as crytober for a reason. I love that Coty is taking me away in the middle of October again, helps keep me sane to get away. Its hard to make vacations happen when you work consistently May through October so I’m thankful this year and last we were able to get away twice each year. I think its a nice tradition to have, makes us have a budget but it keeps our focus on our family. It also refreshes us for the beginning of the season and at the end of it. Okay, I’ll stop talking… I’ll end with a cute photo of Molly on a beach.

What you don’t know is that 99% of this shoot she was naked. I mean naked as a jay bird naked. But miraculously she put on her dress and let us take some photos.