To my sweet babies I have lost.

I loved you from the moment I found out I was carrying you. Every time I heard your heart beat, it brought me more joy then I could ever imagine. I cannot fathom that the first time you opened your eyes that you saw Jesus instead of me but I am so grateful that it was HIM that you would see. Your lives have taught me to never take any moment for granted, to breath in this life that God is giving me and live it to the fullest. Each of you have taught me different things and I am not the woman I am today without you. Our June baby, you taught me how precious life is. How nothing is guaranteed but God is faithful. You taught me to love more then I ever imagined, how precious our Molly is and I am so grateful for you. Hope, my sweet Hope. You taught me how much I needed Christ. You taught me to trust Him more with our journey because I can only fine peace and hope IN HIM. You taught me to Hope in all things. I cannot wait to meet you one day and see what color eyes you have because your father and I have a running joke that maybe our babies in heaven all have blue eyes like me since your brothers and sister all have dark eyes like your daddy. I think of you often, the anchor is a constant reminder of your life. To our October baby. I didn’t carry you very long but you have no idea how much I wanted you. How much I didn’t care when you were due that I just longed for you so much. You taught me to be grateful for those around me who were having babies as I grieved my own and it was such a hard lesson, but I’m so grateful for it. You taught me to once again, surrender this desire for more children to my Father because that may not be His plan. You taught me to not lose hope but to just rest on His Amazing Grace. You taught me to Follow Christ through this life without resistance and to trust Him in all things.

I’m so grateful for your sweet lives. I pray constantly that God would never let me forget you all and that He would put other people in my path so I can share your story. I have prayed that God would use your lives to further His gospel and help others who are in pain. I cannot wait to meet you all, and for you to meet your brothers and sister. Thank you for all that you have done in my life, Thank you Lord for each sweet baby you let me carry.

I will carry you always,

Your Momma